A Baby Changes Everything

"I lead each of My children along a path that is uniquely tailored for him or her."    Sarah Young, Jesus Calling

Lots of changes are happening in our house. A couple I can't write about just yet, but I will. Soon. People say a baby changes everything. But it's true. A baby changes everything.

I knew our schedules would change. Todd and I go to bed when Crosbi does. Around 9pm. It's kind of sad, really. Some nights we'll stay up past 10 - oh boy! It's just that our little one wakes between 6 and 6:30am, ready for the day, and I stopped napping when she naps a long time ago. Her nap time is precious, not to be wasted on sleeping!

Our social life has changed. We used to go on dates all the time. When I was pregnant, we would go out for dinner three, sometimes four nights a week. That may not have been the wisest way to spend our money, but it's what we did and we enjoyed it. We haven't been on a date since Crosbi was born. What's crazy is that my biggest fear about having a baby was losing one-on-one time with Todd, but now our time as a family feels just as special as our former date nights. Friends have asked why we haven't gone out, and really, we just haven't felt like we needed to. When Todd gets home, he wants to play with his daughter, and I love watching them together. I'm sure as she gets older, we'll need our alone time. I would like to have bi-weekly, if not weekly date nights in the months and/or years to come.

Our spending has changed. We took a spontaneous trip to Atlanta a couple of weekends ago to do some shopping. I still had Christmas money and was looking forward to updating my wardrobe. But then I get to the mall where H&M and Gap Kids get the best of me. Do I need a new pair of jeans? Nah. Besides, it's so much more fun dressing Crosbi!

My goals and dreams have changed. This has been the biggest change for me, one I'm truly struggling with, although I think we have found a solution and I will write about that very soon. I've been spending lots of time seeking counsel and praying about returning back to work. I never could have imagined it would be so hard for me. I had a vision for my life. I knew who I wanted to be. Funny how God has a way of changing us.

I'll be back soon to share more of the change in our home. Until then I'll be praying, seeking wisdom from close friends and family, and doing my best to let go and let God take me down the path He has uniquely tailored for me. A path I never imagined.

Oh, and I'll also be kissing this sweet face! I love my girl!

It's past 10 o'clock. I better get to bed!